36) it's just so vague

Okay so I said I would post the rest of my adventures in Queensland up here. But to be honest some of the memories are becoming less vivid with each passing minute. I might put them up when they come back to me.

I'm away from the warmth and the carefree environment. Back to Reality. Were all my expectations have returned and my neglected school work is coming back to haunt me. Although I'm slowly catching up, slowly. School isn't the main issue. It never has been. Not being able to say what I really want to say to you. Then to see you say to others what I've been saying to you all along, I've been constantly hassling you. You'll say this is 'totally different' but it's not. You won't open up, so you can't expect others to do so either. To give and not receive. Your not Jesus. You can't take all the problems of the world. nor all the problems of your family and friends. To put that all on your shoulders. It's not how it's meant to be. Your facade is wearing thin. I try not to show anymore that I care, Cos I know you don't want me to.

And your words are like riddles. With each word raising another question. But not being able to ask you for the answers. I said I wouldn't. I'm never around unless I have to be. Because something will slip out. A phrase, a sentence, a word, a sound. Then it'll all come crashing down. But then again we're not that high up. Still getting past what's been said. I don't know where we are. Everything's just so...vague.

"time heels all wounds" - I hope so.