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I want things to move fast, I'm so impatient. But I go through everything so quickly I rarely stop to enjoy what's happening here and now in my life...taking for granted the time. Wanting to be older, to be done with this chapter in my life, I want to start anew. But then again this segment isn't over there's still a few acts to go...A few life lessons to be learnt.

I knew what I wanted, now things have changed, I'm so unsure, so confused. I hate not knowing what I want to do. To be behind enemy lines, uncharted territory. Looking to the future, I take the present for granted. Looking miles ahead instead of what's immediately around me. I can be so blind.

This blog has been my only place were I've opened up lately ): I don't wanna say i'm giving up, but that's what's happening. This arguing has stopped. The repetitive questions are gone. Replaced by...silence. I don't know what to say or do next. I'm tired. I'm speechless.

...'If you love someone you'll set them free'...Just let go. I have.