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89) 12 down 1 to go...

Getting into HSC year now, I know we don't officially call ourselves yr 12 until the 2010 HSC exams have been done and dusted but I can't help but have a renewed sense of personal worth now that we're on top.

I'm Chisholm House Captain and I feel really good about this next year, I'm confident in all of the Captains that we'll be able to do the best job any SLT has done before.

Yr 11 is over, and the primary focus of my year group atm is our senior jackets :P taking their time as usual, So we won't be seeing them until the start of next year.

Anyways, I just wanted to express the joy in being the eldest in the school, not having to be 'mindful' of the current yr 12's doing their work etc, and although i'll miss a few of them, generally I don't mind that they've gone and taken all their problems and issues with them.

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On a different note, I've booked my P's test and i'm going for them on the 29th of this month, wish me luck aye (: I'm sooo keen.

88) there is no fate but what we make it.

I quite enjoy shutting out the world and immersing myself in the world of Superheroes where anything and everything is possible. The super-powered individuals who make it their soul purpose in life to protect humanity, in fact all life.

When I finish my years of learning I hope to follow in their footsteps, but I suppose not in the same way that my idols do in their comic books, kicking ass and taking names (: No, I'll train hard in the ADF and with a team of skilled soldiers I'll make my mark on the world.

I'm plating my feet firmly in the ground, preparing myself for the next complication. I'll be ready, that's what studying is for. Looking forward to my future and what the next few years are gonna bring (:

...there is no fate but what we make it.

87) maybe it's just me

Are you the one I've been looking for? Just so we're clear, I'm a lot different to what your use to. But maybe that's a good thing. Do you think you might want me as much as I want you?

Living a life in denial of what is so real is...absurd. The confusion I have is misguided, my logic playing a larger role then my heart which has been misplaced somewhere within the depths of my soul. Are you real? is what I am to you real? Maybe I'm under false pretenses.

If it's meant to be it'll happen...But i'm a man of action, I don't do well being idle. Watching what I love slip out of my hands. I'm still young, I'm allowed to make mistakes, but you won't be one of them. Pushing the problem to the side is only a band-aid solution, it's still there, just covered up.

"What should I do?"

A solution, an answer is what I would like to hear. Waiting, sitting, wishing and hoping. Everything I didn't want to do. Indecision holding back the words in my mouth, threatening to blurt out and tell you how I feel.

It's a great feeling when you say hi or look my way and smile, because I know, even if its just for a second, that I've crossed your mind...

...your on my mind.

86) when life gives you lemons...you throw them back and ask for oranges!

National MUNA 2010 was a definitely something i'll remember for the rest of my life. It was a great experience and I learnt so much of the course of that weekend about the world than I have in any of my previous geography lessons.

Definitely love meeting new people and the level of maturity that was shown during events and the flowing nature of the entire assembly. It was a long weekend and I made some new friends, definitely worth the fatigue I'm having right now.

"Who are we? FRANCE"

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Snow trip was a blast, had a great time shredding the slopes at Smiggins, Perisher and Blue Cow. Started with Carroll Day starting with the mass, then trivia in my Superman suit, activities and finishing with the concert which abruptly ended for me dues to the bus for the snow.

Anyways, Saturday we hit the slopes, starting the morning with a two hour lesson then enjoying ourselves at Smiggins and moving to Perisher with a small group of mates after lunch to hit up the terrain park (: That definitely caused some bruises.

Sunday was actually a really great day, we started the morning with a couple of runs down smiggins then moved to the terrain park at perisher, then came back for our lessons where we journeyed back tot he terrain park for the lesson. afterwards we returned to smiggins for lunch and Mr Fogarty told us to go to Blue Cow, where he'd meet us (which he didn't).

Coming down side saddle, Rhys makes a hug stack on his ski's and I stopped to wait for him, watching the rest of the lads speed by. Rhys was having a hard day and was pretty frustrated at that stage. The guys got on the chairlift and disappeared, leaving me and Rhys. We had a good run back to smiggins initially lost, however after asking for directions made a speedy return to smiggins (: turned out to be pretty fun.

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Doing my School Captain Speech tomorrow, wish me luck (: Hoping I do my year group proud, only want what's best for them (:

85) third times the charm

Had a pretty chilled day. Went to the movies with her, and had a chilled time. This feeling I have when your around, I didn't think I would get it back. I think I was just happy that I have someone. I'm still trying to find out what she sees in me. I suppose that's a normal feeling, inadequacy. I'm just afraid with my final year of High School fast approaching I'm not gonna have time for her. I'd hate myself for making her wait for me.

Good movie + Good company = Great time (:

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Got most of my snow gear with Fanny and his gf afterward. Drove to my relatives house and got a couple of boards and bindings and a few snow clothes (: Getting Keen.

MUNA is coming up, leaving for Canberra on Friday. A lot to look forward to (:

Things are looking up,

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