76) irony

You summed it up perfectly. I'll ask you what's wrong, you won't tell me, you ask him what's wrong he won't tell you. Where's the justice in life when the one that you want is right in front of your eye's but your too busy looking the other way to see it.

75) what will I do when the time comes

I've made myself comfortable with how things are going. Neither here nor there, on the borderline between two very different titles. I don't know what I'm gonna do when it happens, my heart will probably break unless I find something to replace it. Your one of a kind, nothing and no-one will ever replace the space you fill.

not feelin very optimistic

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On a different note, school is pretty much over for me, As of friday it's full on musical rehearsals and performances...Pretty keen fingers crossed it'll all work out.

Anth (:

74) another long day

my weekend wasn't too bad. Thanks for asking (: Saturday was pretty lush, woke up at 7ish and text'd someone, they know who they are, then went back to sleep till 1ish. I felt so good after I woke up. I bummed around the house feeling to good to ruin it with homework or other such things. Instead I decided to read away the couple of hours till I had to go to work. So I worked my normal shift with Jess. Just us two which we ended up getting a $41 worth of tips. Good night I think (:

Today was pretty good. Wasn't keen on waking up early but it didn't bother me that much. Rehearsals from 9am to 5pm. It wasn't too bad, everyone was moving and things got done (: It's looking pretty good. Now I just need to get my costumes :s

So around 4:30 Dad calls me and asks me to work for a couple of hours at the restaurant. So I walk from the RSL hall to the restaurant and I work for a couple of hours. Very long day.

Dad says he's gotta get something in the bay from my uncle who is gonna get back to the bay around 10ish. So he's asked me and Nathan to go watch Prince of Persia.

So in about 20 mins we shall head to the bay and go watch the movie. Pretty damn keen!

Anth (:

73) pretty hectic

Last couple of days have been pretty full on.

Wednesday was the start, With the school we went to go watch Wicked the musical, which blew me away, I was in awe of the entire show. Although things didn't go the way I planned and was knocked back every time I tried, It didn't really matter cause you distracted me from my thoughts, thank you. It was the most tiring bus trip I've been on, and I've been on my fair share. But this was totally worth it.

Next Day I wanted to stay home, But I forced myself out of bed and went to school, knowing I had Industrial Tech, Music, Double Maths and Double Advanced English, I was exhausted after that. But I thought to myself, I'm not the only one tired, there's a fair few number of people who are feeling the same, so I'll just tough it out, I'll go home and sleep it off. I lay in bed ready to let the fatigue of the bus trip and school take control. Then I hear the phone ringing, a minute later my little brother, Ethan, comes into my room and tells me I have to go out to the restaurant to work, because they're busy. At that stage I thought to myself, Okay fair enough, Grandparents are gone, I'll just go and do it without complaint. So I work how ever many hours it was, wasn't really counting, just wanted it to be over. After they let go home at like 9ish I realise I have a fair amount of homework to do. So my night ended around 12 o'clock. Sleep was a great relief.

Next day, Today, I woke up at 7 am Realising that today we'd be moving the music equipment to the RSL hall in Moruya. No big deal I've done this before, I got to school to find that most everyone has gone to Moruya already, So John Rzepa and His dad were there tying the stage down on their truck. So go with them to Moruya. Getting there we carried to stages into the hall, Keep in mind that I'm still tired from the previous couple of days. Then driving back to school for the second load, It took us 3 hours to make both the trips load and unload the truck. I was pretty spent by the end of it ): But that was only the morning. Afterwards, because there was only a small number of people their, due to hospitality which meant more people didn't come, but with so much work to do, it made everything take twice as long with less people. Here's just some of the things I did:

• Carry equipment to truck
• Load truck
• Unload truck
• Carry equipment into RSL
• Sort equipment
• Decide where the table are to go so the stage can be propped up
• Lift stage
• Help to secure stage
• Walk into town to buy cloth tape (solid black tape)
• Hang up backdrop
• Attach lights to suspended poles
• Test lights
• Adjust lights
• Attach Razz Matazz (big ass light) to ceiling
• Set up spotlight
• Cover stage with stage curtain

That's as much as i can think of everything else is kinda of a blur. Well that was a long day but it wasn't over, I'd come home and had 30mins to get ready for work. Leaving the house at 4ish I cam out to work till 9ish. Not too busy so that was good, well good for me. I'm hoping to catch up on some sleep tomorrow morning.

I think I've had enough excitement for a while, unfortunately for me I'm not due for a long rest until the second week of the holidays ): Hoping I can keep my cool till then.

Anth (:

72) I think I make a pretty good best man (:

So the start of this little story probably begins last Friday. As I found out that rehearsals we're not on this Sunday which meant that I was going to be going with my family to Ulladulla for some wedding. So come Sunday morning, Suit pants, Long sleeved shirt and black skinny tie. The usual dress for a wedding, yes? So we made our way to Ulladulla, stopping at Macca's because my little brother was hungry, Then continuing to the Church in Milton. Fairly straightforward so far? Well we get there with no problems and I see a whole bunch of Vietnamese people I don't know. Not really a surprise, I kinda expected as much. Well I walk down there with my Dad and they start talking in Vietnamese. Then I start hearing them talk about me, This may come as a surprise but I was the tallest Vietnamese person there, saying how tall I was and how big I'd gotten and then complimenting my dad on how he has such a handsome son. The usual spiel I get from these kinda people. So the Groom comes up to my Dad and I'm pretty sure he asks him to be the Best man, mind you this is hell short notice cos the wedding was about to start in like 5 minutes, So my dad decides to palm it off to me. Thanks dad. So me and my infinite knowledge of weddings has somehow managed to arrive at a wedding were I know only a few people and am expected to fill the role of the Best man. Oh Boy!

Okay well no biggy I'll just wing it, not like I had a choice though :s So the bridesmaid I was with, Denny, Didn't know what she was doing either, Mainly cos she's never been in a church before, she told me as we were about to start. Well she was actually quite pretty, don't know how old she is though, she was shorter than me and wuite petite, but that's all I could discern. So the ceremony took place, Me and Denny had to get up a few times here and there. Then the weirdest thing happened, I suppose not really weird, I had to sign my name on the Marital document. So I thought to myself, Okay Vietnamese wedding, Vietnamese couple, i'll sign with my Vietnamese name. So I go to write it, Ta Tan Hy(shit wrong letter, oh well try and make a quick recovery) ynh Anh (my Vietnamese name is Ta Tan Huynh Anh). So I spelt my name wrong haha I suppose it didn't really matter, The fact that I signed it is good enough. So after that we went to the Ulludulla Palace which is a restaurant one of my relatives owns. Had lunch there and then after everything was done went home.

Pretty good day, until I had to come home, get changed and go to work ): Because my Grandparents are overseas I had to work the front by myself. Is very boring but I suppose I didn't really mind, If I wasn't working I'd have to be doin my homework. My iPhone definitely made the night go by faster, I bought the phone the other day off my Aunt Trinh who works in Phone Zone, excellent saleswoman (: So yeh had some fun with that while I was waiting for food to be cooked, customers to eat etc.

I like weddings, I'm pretty keen for my own (: I know that's years off but it's nice to think about. I think I'll be a dad before I'm an Uncle. Anyways, I think I've talked enough.

Anthony (:

71) don't be so naive

Wow, and to think I actually thought things were turning out fine. Things aren't as clear as they used to be. I thought...well it doesn't matter what I think. In the end it's not enough, I wasn't enough. Ha it's funny that I actually thought it could happen, things looked so promising. It seemed as though you were right there but in the end it was just the dancing shadows in the thick fog. Will it ever clear?

70) worth a read (:

This blog is of my friend Jessica Jane Walton. She started blogging around the same time as myself and she's really quite good (: I've briefly told you about myself going to Wagga Wagga a couple of posts ago but I believe this post really sums it up.

Take some time to have a read...

http://lifeaswechoose.blogspot.com/2010/06/sixtyfive-what-life.html

Follow her...She's quite the blogger I think you'll find that you'll enjoy it (:

69) it's sorted

Okay so I'm kinda liking how things are at the moment. Yes the routine is still there but lately its been broken up a bit by excursions and what not (: I've made some decisions that I feel good about. At the end of this year I'm going to drop music.

I remember when I first started I did it because I thought'd be cool and my Dad pushed for me to learn an instrument because music was such a big part of his life growing up. As I grew up I did it to pick up girls, Those of you who know me will see how that turned out. There's not really a lot of chances to show people how hard you've worked. Especially at my school there's not a lot of opportunities. I suppose if you love something it shouldn't matter. But I can't not practice and practice to have no one see how hard I've worked. Then it just becomes time consuming and pointless.

But I suppose I'm not too fussed about that anymore, just enjoying being here. Heres to another day. Hoping for a better tomorrow.