Thanks Matty Fav for speaking your mind and letting me know what the group was thinking...I've taken it into consideration and this is my response...
In the heat of the moment we lose sight of our true friends...and in the heat of the moment I lost sight of mine...
I was sooo angry, which may have caused this outburst...all my issues coming down on me at once and...BAM! Out comes verbal abuse...directed at one of my best mates...
I say some stupid things sometimes...We all do I guess...But I had just had enough...I suppose it wasn't the right day, the right time or the right moment...
So I blurted out 2 years of bottled up resentment...And at first it felt good...I was initially relieved that I had finally said what I longed to say...
But at what cost?
He didn't deserve it, no-one deserves it...to be humiliated...and that's how I feel a lot of the time...I just wanted to get the message through...
The message got through...a little too well.
Friendships, which took years to make...shattered in seconds...over a few heated words.
Just so you know Lads, this what I really think of you...Matt - Out of our small group your the only person who takes me seriously...however rare that is...Jono - I rarely get shit from you...and although we don't talk much...I appreciate the 'lack of' comments...Rhys - I suppose most of my anger was situated towards you...You never intentionally try to hurt me...but that's because your a little ignorant of other people's attitude sometimes...But you have good intentions...
Your all top blokes :)
Guys, I know we joke about stuff and sure it can be mutual...but there are some things that happen in the past (however amusing to you), that should stay in the past...Go crazy with the 'Asian' jokes...They don't bother me...but personal stuff...is crossing the line.
Don't worry I won't be coming back anytime soon...I think you'd prefer it if I wasn't around :) At least for now...
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