Ever had that feeling that your unwanted by the people who you want? I spent a lot of the day alone...sat away from my usual friends...Just feeling pretty down on life....Friends that don't care whether your around or not? Being someone else when your around them so that you can fit in...It can be so tiring somedays...Would life have been better if I'd never bothered to connect with them...
Giving her your all, hoping you might just get a some affection back...and feeling down when she's given It to another guy...Kills me inside when I can't do anything about it...so instead I just get up and walk away...I just want her to be happy and if it means this? Then there's not much I can do? I try to help where I can, and sometimes I go beyond just to get them to let me in...but then i'm faced with a wall...with concrete foundations, a barbed wired top and guards disguised as lies.
On a lighter note...well less heavy I suppose...I've found myself very productive today...Sitting away from people in class has helped me focus, maybe I should just do it a little more often? But I couldn't help but find myself sitting and staring blankly at my page... because a certain person was on my mind...Who usually relax's my thoughts but turned out to cause a little more heartache because I was unable to make her happy?
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