52) broken scales

There just seems to be no balance in my life. If I focus on schoolwork I lose my friends, if I focus on my friends schoolwork gets out of hand. Why don't I just focus on both equally? Easier said than done. I should have stayed home tonight to do the homework that was due today, but instead I decided to go to the movies and mend some broken threads.

I ran the cross country today. Came 15th out of some 50 odd guys in yr 11 and 12. So i'm feeling pretty good about that. I actually like running, although i'm pretty unfit I wanna start doing it more often. I bought an iPod armband for jogging etc, but I lost it the same night I bought it. Which has made me reluctant to start running. Although not running for ages and doing the cross country didn't help much. I had pretty sore hips and there feeling pretty weird right now. Not to mention I had to work tonight. Although it wasn't too busy so it was pretty chilled.

Tomorrow I need to go into town to get some guitar strings and maybe drop by the sports store and get some skins. Well it's pretty late so I think I'll call it a night. Trying to mend the threads on these broken scales, school on one side, social life on the other. My life is constantly in motion never here nor there. The excitement of life is non-existent. I just want to get away. Away where no one knows who I am. Where I can be anyone I want to be. Where I can be...me.